Amazing......

How amazing is God??? I have never been able to imagine just how great, how big, how amazing God is........He is just too awesome to comprehend.........always faithful, always loving, always there.

And sometimes He takes you completely by surprise..........yesterday morning while I was spending some time with God, I got just a glimpse of how huge His love for me is..........I had been thanking God for the massive gift He gave me - His son Jesus dying on the cross for me - and knew I would never really fathom just how big that was, when God showed me kneeling at the foot of the cross. I had my head bowed when I heard "Look"..........I lifted my head and looked up towards Jesus on the cross and I was completely overwhelmed.........I had expected to look up and see Jesus, I thought I had an idea how big the cross would be and that Jesus, would be a regular guy size on the cross...........was I wrong??? As I looked up what I saw was an immensely huge cross, it stretched so far up into the sky and stretched so wide that I couldn't see the top or the edges of it..........it took my breath away - it was HUGE!!!!! And on the cross was Jesus, he was huge too, this great man, so big in all things...........love, forgiveness, grace, gentleness, kindness............so big and great and yet, he laid down his life for me - little old me............

Like I said, it was only a glimpse, I don't think I have the comprehension to deal with anymore than a glimpse, but a glimpse that was so powerful that all I could think was 'How can I not honour and serve Him all my life???'

I love it when god chooses to reveal things to me...........they usually leave me overwhelmed and weeping, but I wouldn't miss them for anything.

Forgiveness....

.....can be such a hard thing. Especially when it involves hurt & broken friendships.

I will be able to forgive, but for today I need to grieve over friendships lost and deal with the pain that has been inflicted.

Gods love will heal me and his grace will carry me through.

A very sad day today.

Growth......

This year has started amazingly. As I've said before, I've really felt God speaking to us about 'growth and stepping up'...........me and Ross have taken on some new things and are really excited about them. We have taken over the coffee at church on Sundays, we want to create a nice environment where people want to come and sit and have coffee and chat before the service starts. It's been going very well for the last few weeks and we have had lots of great feedback and lots of offers for help - we are trying to build a team who are willing to serve and enjoy chatting, serving and most importantly washing up!!!!!

The other area where we felt God challenging us was in starting up our own housegroup. We discussed it with Mark, our pastor, asked a few people from church if they would like to join us and I'm really excited to let you know that our first meeting is on Tuesday. We have a good core of people to start the group and are praying that we can gather more and more people into the group.

We have just finished a week of prayer, in which God spoke to me very clearly about a few issues. I have been really praying that God will tell me what direction he wants to lead me in. I'm so excited by where I'm going, there will be lots of hard work and some courses to go on, but I'm ready for the challenge. I will reveal more as it all unfolds.

I don't usually make New year Resolutions but this year I am determined to allow God to direct every aspect of my life. My resolution is to serve God wholly with everything I have. This is going to be a fantastic year!!!